It is like a mind-controlling disease...
It makes you feel worthless and unknown...
It has no mercy, whispering in your ear that life has no meaning...
It tells you no one cares and why go on...
It makes you feel like you have no purpose...

You want to run and hide but you know it is close behind
following you no matter how hard you try to escape...
It tells you lies and says nasty things to you...
It makes you feel empty inside...
It takes a part of you away so you feel incomplete...

This so called disease is called depression ... ...

It has been quite sum time since i last blog... ard 3 weeks ba... problems has arises in moi personal life.. well.. but I think I am coping it quite well now...

to add things in, a fren whom we used to hang out together has passed away in an accident today... it was a shocking news that I received an hour ago ... just saw him few weeks back... for those who know him and has not got the news, AH BU has passed away in an accident. He will be cremated tomorrow at 12pm...

Life is dat ever-changing, have you ever think that:
- someone whom you have been with for 2 yrs may turn out to a stranger to you afterall...
- someone whom you are talking to now may not be in this world the next minute...

Nothing lasts in this samsara world...

There are billions of people in the world, yet I feel like I'm alone
And all I try to do is right, but everyone seems to treat me wrong
So I lash out in rage, but what I say is never heard
Because I've learned to turn my cheek and swallow all these hateful words

But I'm getting tired now and I can only take so much
Because with everything that happens my soul is slowly being touched
So I make others laugh just to escape all my pain
But every time I'm down no one's there to do the same

So I sit back and relax, while I nurse all my wounds
As I lay terribly depressed in a dark solemn room
Somehow this little balled up aggression
Is slowly changing into an even bigger depression
Something I can't take and can't shake
And eats away with every second

I've now acquired too many emotions to ever explain
It feels like there's demons as well as angels fighting for control of my pain
And for some strange reason my heart is being pulled in opposite directions
One has the side of good and the other knows no affection

I can't explain the way I feel, I just know I feel this way
From the second that I wake, till the time I end my day
Although I enjoy life and try my best to learn it's lessons
I just wish someone could teach me to escape this great depression