***yawnzZz***.. had a long day today.. well.. it was half day at work today.. after work, went for a shopping spree wif a fren.. lolx.. after that we went for coffee session.. ard evening.. went home to refresh moiself with a bath le den went to yishun central to have our dinner... rot ard there for quite a while before deciding to go to Safra for billiard session.. but too bad.. it is closing soon.. so we went to a prata shop & have a drink again.. lolx.. life seems kindda monotonous.. zZzzZzz.. but thats my reborned life.. i guess.. ^_^!

Anyway, on X'mas eve, me & ah dear went to Fish & Co for lunch... after that hang ard Orchard till kindda late.. the crowd there was.. oMg.. crowded & fully packed with pple.. thats the way to describe? haha.. went to catch a midnite show.. "One Tall Chinese Story". A kindda lame show.. but with good graphics.. mMmmmMm.. guess that's the to celebrate a X'mas eve other than clubbing or rounding in Singapore??? ... keke ...

As for New Year... guess will be doing our countdown at town again ya?? .. KTV session.. mMmmMm.. most prob.. but for now... it's zZzzZzzz timey.. gotta refresh moiself for a better 2006... The next bloggie entry will be next year.. lolx.. (-_-)!

oPpz.. it has been 20 days since i last log in.. lolx.. well.. been kindda busy...let's summarize moi 20 days from here..

well... last week had a department dinner at swissotel... it was a buffet.. & oMg.. the chocolate fountain looks so yummy.. lolx.. but i was too full to really try all the food there.. but.. nvm.. guess i will be going there again for another try..

after a good dinner.. went for a drink ard Clarke Quay... was getting very tired le.. so went home earlier to rest.. & on da way home.. saw that there was a damn long queue at Ministry Of Sound... woOooo... heard that the deco seems damnn nice.. ^_^!

Went to watch "The Promise" last week with ah dear, winnie & her bf.. it's a kindda nicey show.. Cecilia is soOooOoo pretty.. keke.. **droolssSss**

Few days backie.. went to Orchard wif nicole to buy a bdae present for Wendy ... after that went to Clarke Quay again.. lolx.. it was Wendy sis bdae... had a small dinner gathering there.. well.. did enjoy ourselves too...

PS: Happy Bdae Wendy sis...

Today after workie went to get a present for X'mas gift exchange in da office.. and oMg.. i duno how to wrap & cleber ah dear volunteer to wrap for moi.. lolx.. well... actually if anyhow wrap... i shuld be able to do dat.. but it will not look presentable at all .. wahhahHahah...

& now.. im going to zZzz le... sOooOo tired... nitey.. zZzzZz.. & an advance Merry X'mas to everyone...

well well well.. been a long time since i last log in.. mMmmmMm... was at moi daddy house at bedok for the past few days and last week too..

just backie from town.. after work met up with winnie and her bf go shop ard.. well.. did not get anything for moiself.. but i got 2 presents for moi 2 notti kidz at home... lolx.. (fyi.. i have already got presents for moiself yesterday le.. ) hehe..

Ydae met up with pamela ard bugis.. had our dinner and shop ard.. she initiated a shopping session and ended up... I was the one doing the shopping .. haha.. anyway... as usual.. ^_^!

tml going to zoo after work... company D&D is being held dere.. think that will be a dressed up party (dressing up as natives in the zoo).. happening ya?? lolx.. stay tuned to moi updates tml .. **winkx***

hAppy birthday to you moi dear sis... 26 years old le ah.. haiz.. hope your life gets better... would love it if you are able to change back to a family gurl??? mMmmmmm.. knows you are going thru a rough patch in your life now... however.. still hopes you get over it soon and be more sensible le.. see u lidat.. mum n me aso not happy.. ya know.. well... its ya bdae... dun wanna nag at ya too much le.. hope you enjoy urself tonight... mi still gotta wrk tml.. wun be clubbing wif ya le.. hopex you sees this ... ^_^!

Rei sings: happy bdae to ya... happy bdae to ya.. happy bdae to moi dear sis.. happy bdae to ya...

Hope you like the small present for ya.. (on your desk)...will get a bigger present for ya next yr (hopefully im richer next yr) lolx ... (0_-)

well... on a sat morn.. woke up to help wipe moi dear nephew de shit.. lolx.. 1st time eva since i was born... keke... went to buy 4d.. but never strike wor.. =(

anyway... noon time got the urge to drink moi fav banana milkshake with pearl.. lolx.. so met up wif ah dear at interchange... after that went to chong pang buy our dinner le den came home to rot again lor.. as usual.. lolx..

watch tv... less den 3 hours only ... ah dear and moi mum went to fren house pak mahjong le... watch dem play... after 1 round plus, i was feeling kindda tired le.. so home i go... and of coz.. too bo liaoz at home now.. so blogging timey.. lolx.. ***yawnzZzz...*** ... think im not gonna wait for them le.. sleeping timey le.. **yawnzzz**.. nitey... zZzzzzzZzzz

I s o l a t e d . . . . . r e i . . . ... ... ... . . . . . thats ... rach... rach is rei and rei is rach..???

WTH... when can moi mind quiet down and stop floating here and dere.. it reli gets on moi nerves.. continue like this and i guess im reli going bonkers .... lolx..

I guess i have really lost moi real self.. or have i eva knew moi real self??? .. ya... this is how stuff gets moi mind going on & on .. oMg.. for no rhyme of reason...

seems no one understand... when no one understands... it means no one will understand except oneself.. myself ...

moi mind is making life tired.... sooOoooo.. tired.... have oneself of myself isolated another self of moiself which made moiself so selfless ???

/.../...\.../...\.../___ I s o l a t e d __ R e i ___ /...\.../...\...\...\

***yawnzZz*** ... another weekday has passed... today was kindda busy @ work.. work till 9pm den met up wif wendy for dinner... been such a long time since i last met up wif her.. keke.. still as pretty as eva.. ^_^!

went to fish & co for dinner.. yummyyYyy... chatting session after our dinner.. keke.. by 10 plus, i was oredi feeling so tired le... so home we go le.. lolx.. wed nite all go home... despite ladies nite.. keke...

ZzzZzzzZzz.. nitey to all... **yawnzZz**

现在又冷又黑的卑观里... ...
就像出现另一张脸... ...
看着这种模声的脸 ... ...
自己都讨厌 ... ...

这的心情起复不定... ...
没人了解 ... ...
这种糊涂... ...
想大声哭... ...
觉得活得很累 ... ...

mMmm.. been some time since ii last log in here.. keke.. well.. a long weekend has passed for me.. took leave on wed.. which mean ii dun nidda work for the past 3 days.. lolx.. went back to work today feeling so boringgg.. keke.. lots of work to do.. zZzzZzz

well.. Tues went to town with ah dear and we went to catch a movie at night.. "The exorcisms of Emily Rose".. nicey show.. based on a true life account de wor.. keke...

***yawnzZz*** just backie from kopi & tok kok session with ah pam not long ago .. sOooOooo tired today... nitey... zZzzzzZzz

上一次微笑之后。。。
世界遗漏了什么???

流泪的时候却忘了为什么.. ...
但深夜里总是会悲伤。。
总会不由自主的流泪。。。

诺没了这可怕的忧郁。。。
我还会是现在这样吗？？？

我也不晓得。。。
因我已忘了。。。

忘了那没忧郁的心灵。。。
忘了没忧郁的我曾是多开心的。。。

well... today was on leave.. therefore.. yesterday night after watching the "Stairway to Heaven" ( nicey show wor ), went to Macpherson with ah dear & see him pak number ball... by the time they finished their games, ah dear and me think it is still kindda early so the both of us stayed back and played a few more rounds ... keke ... ard 4++am it is beddie timey... so home we go ... zZzzzZzz

As for today, I had another heavy dinner.. lolz.. guess its diet period for the next few weeks.. hehe.. ^_^!

mMmm... yesterday after workie went to Chinatown for dinner... ate the claypot rice wor.. guess how long we waited before the claypot appears in front of moi? .. oMg.. it took ard 1 hour.. zZzzZzz ... ... anyway... after the long wait.. i had a very full dinner.. keke.. tagging moi going-to-burst stomache along, we went to patronise a vcd shop... ah dear bought a korean drama series for moi dere.. think that will be keeping me occupied once he is not around.. lolz..

Anyway, today i had a very full dinner again.. guess im not going to slim down at this rate.. **sObx**... ah dear bought pizza, garlic bread, drumsticks and chicken wings... going at this rate... im going fat fAt FAT and FATTER !!!.. wahahaHAhhaha... ***//BoOooMmmM//***

well... another weekend has passed... fri after workie met up with moi frenz and acc her n her fren go bridal shop to try their gowns ... rot dere a while le den go chinatown makan dim sum and wait for ah dear finish work too.. winnie bought a lot of vcd dere sia.. lolx.. afterwhich we went to watch a lame movie.. " the 40 year old virgin" (a show as introduced by pamela which is worth the money) .. zZz.. i am beginning to doubt her.. lolx..

on a sat.. sophia wanted to go to Beauty World.. she came up to moi house while waiting for moi to get ready.. after that off we go to Beauty World.. ( are there a lot of beauties? ) lolx... anyway.. ard evening.. home sweet home.. slept till 10 plus and met up wif winnie again.. keke.. went to Mt Faber to drink milkshake.. den home we go le.. coz they have not slept a wink the night before.. lolz.. poor thing..

On sunday.. ah dear daddy bdae.. went to buy him a present le den went for dinner.. after that home we go le .. & this summarises moi weekend ... ^_^!

lastly... i have a date with the vampire.. lolx.. **pOooff**

zzzZzzz... backie from work ... had a tiring weekend though.. sat went to temple le den send moi sis go bq take her pay.. after that went to chalet le... rot there a while le and dey decided to go rounding.. so off we go rounding around orchard, msouth and eastcoast.. lolx.. kindda boliao.. but that is singapore life ya??

slept the way thru moi sunday .. hehe .. was at daddy house watching SCV the whole day.. keke... {-_-}

**//** praying for moi sis **sigh**//**

***yawnz*** ... kindda tired due to moi flu.. yeah.. sick again .. lmao.. anyway... woke up yesterday feeling damn giddy... zZzzZz.. tot im gonna collapse sia.. wahaha.. went to work as usual.. after workie, went for dinner with 2 friends... budget meal sia ... **winkxxZz**

aFter dinner, tok kok a while den went to parklane to pak pool ... mMmm... had some fun with some jokes cracked dere.. lolx..

another day has passed again.. tomorrow will be another long day.. keke... gonna go temple chant prayers le den go chalet... guess that will be enough to tired me out?? ^_^!

//**// Do ya know it takes a few million times of reincarnation to have a human "shell" //**//

well.. well.. well.. its bloggy time.. just backie from work not long.. ya.. today overtime day.. lolx.. anyway... nothing much to update in moi bloggy too .. .. nowadaes life seems to be about going to work and back from work.. zZzzZz .. BUT... Hey dudes... that is ADULT life.. //winkx//.. mMmmm... anyway, from moi taggy.. ya can see dere are already pple calling moi AUNTIE .. OmG... dO i really luk like auntie??? Kill me!!!!... **sObx sObx**{^_-}

Btw, this is a nice song ya??? it is so meaningful .. with the saddening music and the lyrics... in those dark period of moi time.. all these seem so meaningful.. lolx.. dats due to the fact that I'm neurotic~!~!.. ??? ~!~!...

PS: Sis ah.. I duno how to say or console you le.. just remember to behave.. dun make family worry le.. mum is no better than you now leh.. haiz..hope you can get over this soon.. sorry.. i have been kindda busy/tired to meet up with you. Partly becoz your tius/timing also buey gum...Anyway, Sat moi fren chalet at Changi.. remember hor.. hehe..

Nity everyone... zZzzZz... it's another day @ work tomolo.. guess its the same for most of ya too.. have a nice sleep and strive for a better tomolo... {^_^}

我的心早已经一片黑暗 ,
曾经在梦醒后只是冰冷铁窗 ,
这样的现实它教我更加勇敢 ... ...

明明想忘记 ,
却藏著痕迹 ... ...

多麼痛恨这样矛盾的情绪 ,
谁能把我从这深渊里逃离 ... ...

//**// 那段在地狱里等待天堂的日子 //**//

another week has passed.. well.. yesterday was a long day ya... morn woke up went to Junction 8 for breakfast... after that had Haagen Ice Cream as dessert.. lolx.. so full.. shop around for some clothings and neccesities and home we go...

rest for a while at home le den evening went to chalet at Pasir Ris country club (Ananda) .. heh... rot around dere for a few hours before i rushed home to have a bath ( too smelly from the air pollution from the bbq dere) .. hehe.. bath le den meet ah dear go fren house see him pak mahjong.. lolx.. went home in the morn.. oMg.. damn shag sia.. zZzzZzz... ^_^!

sOoooOoo.. i spent moi sunday slping at home the whole day.. lolx.. and now.. i have a date with the vampire again.. **//** pOooOoofff **//**

zZzzZz... today is fri rite?? YA.. Today is FRIDAY.. and I went to work thinking that it is a Thurs.. zZzzZz... suppose to wear casual wear ma.. ended up wearing nice nice.. lolx.. zZzz.. so blur de...

Anyway.. one good news is .... I ... saw QIU ZHE just now le.. lmao.. shuai ge hor?? hurhur... thinking whether will he become Singapore PR?? so that.... maybe ... mMMmm... one fine day I may bump into him on the streets ... lolx.. laLallalllLalaallLalla... ^_^!

rinngGgggGgg... ringgGgggGgg... that was the 1st sound I heard in the morning.. lolx.. a call from sophia and pamela for a mahjong session.. keke... i woke up, took a bath and went down to sophia house .... mMmm... after the mahjong session, we went to 848 for dinner.. well..and that ends moi sunday.. lolx.. mahjong is really a good past-time wor.. hurhur...

there goes a sunday & another new week begins soon.. zZzZzz...

Now it is tv time.. I have a date with the vampire ... so ... ---- gOne ----

aRrggHh.. another day of headache and bowel system attack.. lolx.. well well well.. it's a sat today.. and Im at home.. it used to be a miracle to find me at home on a sat... but as time goes by.. it has become a natural kind of routine ya? .. lolx..

Thoughts came rushing in nowdaes.. sometimes, i really hate the change in me.. it's too boring.. lolx.. the change in me has made moi life too boring.. but the past me holds no significance in life too.. so what kind of a me should I be?? I dun wan to go back and I dun wan to be stuck here now... Im looking forward.. into the future.. to a world where a new me exists?? mMmm...

//--// Insignificant rei leading an insignificant life //--//

another day backie from work.. mMmm.. a bad start early in the morn today... wakie and found my mouth was bleeding due to duno wad reason? .. followed by a bad stomache on da way to workie... which of course leads to an attack on moi bowel system ...and next comes mr flu who went into moi immune system.. ( and oppx.. i think i infected moi colleagues too.. which made me feel so remorseful... ) tried to bring moi germs away from e office asap.. lolx.. what made it worse was the time when ii was going home... waited 20 mins for the bus & it was FULL again.. OmG.. got to wait for the next bus.. and it wasted 45 min of moi life thru waiting.. zZz...

hey.. i guess im realli a "sick chicken" ... for the past 3 weeks.. i have been sleeping at home during the weekends.. reason for this lazing around is not evoked by moi laziness... it was evoked by moi stupid eyes!!!.. mMmm..or can I say health? I also not sure wads wrong wOr.. my eyes will feel so heavy & it resulted in an attack of moi headache/migrane.. and the way to feel better was to close moi eyes and SLEEP.. yes.. it is SLEEP... i have wasted a few weekends sleeping cause of moi eyes... aRgGghhhHh.. well.. mOi dear mum says it is due to the fact that i m heaty.. n i guess that may be so...

Is moi health deteriorating? mMmm.. due to moi fantastic imagination (or you can say neurotic), I always think im having some kind of incurable strange sickness ... hurhur..

okie.. a message to moi dear sis .. who is going thru a rough patch in her life (as defined by her in her subconscious) .. don't dwell too much .. whatever will be will be.. it's intolerable.. but what to do?? that's life... u still have us.. a bonding created by fate which is for this life (or maybe next life as a pig too?) ... lolx let's try to be a pig family... wahaha.. smile and get on with your life PIG... {^_^}

我记忆里的童话,
已经慢慢的溶化...

我不想孤单的坐在回忆里逞强 ,
时间回不到最开始的地方,
只想这样吹着风 ,
慢慢顺时针遗忘,
或许那样的天真我已经回不去...

我一个人鼓起勇气 ,
跟着时钟一格一格的前进 ,
推开窗等待阳光 ,
等待着清醒 ... ...

^_^! today is a sat.. which means no work.. lolx.. been sick for the past 2 days, BUT.. mi gd ger.. never took MC.. lolx.. life is getting kindda boring.. work, home, slp, watch tv... lmao.. daily routine sia.. compared to the times we had before i went "overseas", it is a really big difference.. lolx.. but well.. at least i am considered a gd gurl now.. keke..

Now I am planning to abort the idea of buying a car.. changed plans le.. lolx.. rather take the $ and go overseas wheneva I feel lik it.. keke.. that seems more interesting and relaxing wOr.. mMmm.. dun ya think so?? keke..

Well well well.. will start mOi planning from this year.. hOpe that by next year.. i will be able to embark on moi new lifestyle?? hurhur..

will update bloggy again... now its TV time.. lolx.. ^_^!

***** Leading a peaceful life *****

如果说了后悔, 是不是一切就能倒退 ...
回忆多么美, 活着多么狼狈 ...
为什么这个世界总要叫人尝伤悲 ...
我不能了解, 也不想了解 ...
我好想好想飞, 逃离这个疯狂世界 ...

那么多苦, 那么多累 ...
青春是挽不回的水, 转眼消失在指间 ...
用力的浪费, 再用力的后悔 ...

*yawnzZz* ... its thurs.. and tomolo is a fri le.. hehe.. guess Im gonna take 2 days leave next week.. too tired le... mMmmm..

life has been the same... work, work and work.. lolx.. sOmetimes will meet up with a few sis or friends for kopi session..

nOthing much to update today.. coz still in a tired mood.. lolx.. nidda good rest.. hehe.. ^_^!

***这是一个真实 或梦幻的世界呢？？？***

不如从今天起没名字 ...
不如随着情绪做傻事 ...
没勇气再知道　...
有什么等待我 ...

不如从此不想任何事 ...
不如随便推搪没缘份 ...
不如忘掉时间或年份 ...

生命是否是天黑等到天亮 ???

我太害怕　... ...
以后亦是同样 , 生命是否必需找一个方向 ???

谁明白???

*yAwnzZz** backie from work le... a public holiday is over le.. =<

oN a National day eve.. went to work as usual.. after work met up with winnie & her bf.. at town makan le den send her fren go holland... after that went to fetch ah mel... den rOt ard while waiting for him to finish work.. hehe.. after that, its brain racking time.. lolx.. gotta think of whr to go wOr... zZzzZzz

We intended to go to MSouth, but the road was closed, so we went to Holland la kopi, ard 2 a.m, we went to "40 tiang".. suppose to see racing?? lolx.. turn out see pple gathering but nO race.. instead, TP was going on & forth.. lolz.. boring national day eve ya.. bUt well... better than rotting @ home i guess.. hehe...

On National itself... went to sOphia house to attend her bb full mth.. hehe... sO cutie.. her bb eyes so big wor.. congrats sis... stay happy 4eva... **winkx**

well well well.. been a few weeks since i last updated moi blog.. mMmm.. been really quite busy with work.. that's the reason.. hehe...

yEsterday went tO watch "The Chocolate Factory" ... it was quite a nice show.. wHat i liked best was the lift.. lolx.. hOw i wish i got a lift lidat.. Its sO nice.. hehe... & the squirels are so cute.. lolx.. they are shelling nuts.. & oMg.. they are really god damn cutie.. hurhur...

aFter the show, hOme sweet hOme as usual.. was sO tired.. it was ard 3 plus in the morn by the time i reached hOme.. bUt well.. I got a whole day to rest at home afTer that.. sO it's alrite.. keke...

today is rest day at hOme... kindda boring.. but.. well... I really need a good rest i guess.. hehe.. ^_^!

jUst rEach hOme & oMg....*yawnxZxxxZxx* Im really sO tired.. haven't been blogging coz I was kept very busy past few days... lolx.. Been working overtime these few days.. gOt to ruSh soMe programmes aT work .. .. zZzz.. mY eyes are seeing stars tOo ..lolx..

mMmmm.. by the way.. oNe good news is mOi dear sophia has given birth to a pretty ger ger with biG eyes like her.. hurhur... cOngrats sis... *winkx* ^_^!

Guess I really gOt to rest to prepare fOr another long day tOmolo le.. zZzz.. gOd damn tired.. I really need to get my bRain cells functioning nOwadays.. lolx.. *ciAoz*

zZzzzzzZZzzZzzzzZzzz

你听寂寞在唱歌,　
轻轻的... 狠狠的...
歌声是这么残忍, 让人忍不住泪流成河...

你听寂寞在唱歌,
温柔的...　疯狂的...
悲伤越来越深刻,　谁能帮个忙让它停呢?

天黑得像不会再天亮了,
明不明天,　也无所谓了,
就静静的,　看青春难依难舍,
泪还是热的泪痕冷了...

ydae was a friday... after work met up wif pamela at tOwn (heeren).. keke.. weNt to makan dinner aT cineleisure.. aFter that, was thinking of whr tO go when she suggested Party World kTv.. hehe..

we r superstar~!~! lolx.. in our own world at ktv sia.. Initially, we were taking photos instead of singing.. oMg.. lmao.. ^_^!

aFter that, hOme sweet hOme.. *yawnx*...

lallaalala... met up with pamela & nicole after work tO go to tOwn for kopi session & shopping spree.. lolx..

well.. never really bought many things.. hurhur..

walk till tired le den sit down n tok kok at spineli.. updated sOme news from pamela.. n oMg.. tHat sure was shocking news... bUt it's nOt meant for your ears.. lolx..

iTs getting late & all of us have to work the next day.. sO hOme we gO ... zZzzZz

**yAwnz**.. duno y... but i feel so tired these 2 days.. mMmmm... maybe coz of the germs in moi body?? lolx..

Anyway.. on Sunday... it was mahjong tius again.. but it was at nicole hse this time round... hurhur.. after mahjong, i went to dinner with her family.. n .. oMg.. she have a real big family wOr... lolx... went to taMpines to have dinner.. keke.. tHanks nic for the treat.. haha..

*yAwnx* again.. real damn boring... too tired to go out.. but cannot get to slp aT home.. confusing rite?? lolx.. mMmm..

***gOne to rOt*** ( as usual ) ^_^!

tOday Im on mc wOr... It really seems that Im a sick cat.. every mth sure sick once de. . . lolx.. well, Im having fever of 38.4 degrees this time round .. hurhur.. hOpe I doesn't get sack for taking MCs? lolx..

Just nOw went tO see a doc, & guess wad the doc say when she saw my throat? lolx.. sHe say "Wah!" very serious throat infection wOr , initially she really got me scared out of my wits with her reaction sia.. I tot i kanna wad major illness... hurhur .. bUt my throat really in great pain n due to the fever.. whole bodyache sia.. =(

zZzzZzz... *** feeling so giddy nOw sia *** ..

mMmmm.. think I gotta rest le... toO sick le.. *yawnxXx*

Buai Buai!~!~!

Just nOw mahjong session again.. mMmmMmm.. with pamela, axel, sophia & DK..keke.. well well.. sO tired le...

mMm.. ydae watched Initial D.. wOooOOoo.. all those drifting are god damn nice.. tHe show is comical in some sense too.. lolx.. a nice show.. loves tO see those part when they are drifting.. hurhur..


" 神也是人，
神做了一些人做不到的事，
所以变成了神。。。"

The above quotes are from Initial D.. hOpe I never got it wrong. can't really remember it.. bUt that sentence really cute sia.. lolx..

*yawnxzZz*.. getting ready for another week of woRk le.. zZzzzZzzz

well well well.. nOw I just came back from mahjong session with ah pam, ah sop & axel .. lolx.. lose a bit la.. bUt nvm... coz that can really help me to pass mOi time.. hehe..

aNyway, went to the "Falcon Princess" cruise ship ydae for a company function with nicole.. keke.. iT was kind of interesting.. lolx.. never knew the pple in the company could be so sporting when it comes to playing games.. lmao..

zZz... nOw waiting for ah dear cum backie den go watch Initial D with winnie & her bf le.. mMMmm... tHe race will start sOon.. lolx.. a long awaited show.. laLAlalala..

mAybe tomolo mahjong session again ya??? mMmm... sTay tuned for more updates .. lolx.. ( as if mOi updates bery interesting ya??) haha... anyway.. i will pen off here.. tata.. ***ciaoz***

城市里所有寂寞的人类,　　
有几个和我一样偷偷得流泪,　　
若是将它一滴一滴积累 ,　　
会不会流成一条冰冷的河水... ...

整座城市陷入漆黑 ,　
孤独人在寻找自己的定位 ,　　
伪装变成了一种防备, 　　
防备怕被人看穿心碎... ...

城市里所有寂寞的人类, 　　
有几个像我一样厌倦了疲惫 ,　　
若是真心一颗一颗的摧毁 ,　　
会不会全世界和我伤悲 ... ...

... ... ... tHis few days has really been long.. lolx... had only a few hrs sleep ... tHe reason being??? .. Mahjong!!!!! ... lmao...

been playing mahjong after work for this few days wOr... sO tired... & guess wHere Im going later?? oH... yes... gUessed it?? Im going for another mahjong session again.. hurhur...

well... thats the way to pass time since we dun club nowadaes?? ... auntie lifestyle le?? mMmm.. dOubt sO la.. club till sianz le, so mahjong is in trend among us now ma.. bUt we are all still young .. lalLAlalaal... hurhur.... ^_^!

well well well.. iTs wednesday.. middle of the week.. & Im actually at work now.. kindda free in the noon these few days.. lolx.. ^_^!

sooooOOoooOOooo boring... oMg... mMmmMm... nOthing much to update also since I have been going to work & going home these few days... lolx..

***gOne***

**stRetch** ... ydae evening meet my mum, dad, & sis go temple at sin ming dere pRay pRay.. after that.. I went hOme le.. sO.. it concludes that my weekend was very quiet??? lolx...

bUt tOday... wakie le damn boring.. sO jio mahjong.. hehe... later meeting my sis, axel & sophia for mahjong session .. wOooOoo.. aT least got sumthing tO do le... arbo Im bored to death @ home le.. hurhur... ^_^!

***waiting for pay day*** lolx.. aNother good news is that I got my performance appraisal on friday.. & I thought I will be lashed with bad comments, but its not as expected.. wad a relieve sia..*winkx*...

okie.. thats all for today i guess.. keke.. gOing to prepare for mahjong session le.. lalLLalallla...

mMmm.. slept throughout the day on sUnday wOr... cOz I had a long day on saturday.. lolx...

nOon time, met up wif nicole & sophia to town.. sHop at far east & after that, ruShed to heeren for some last min shOpping... hurhur.. cAn't seem tO shop eNuf wOr... hurhur... bUt too bad... all sHops closing le... sO nicole send me to chinatown mEet ah dEar deN we went hOme.. tHx nIc.. keke..

bUt tHat's nOt the end of the day wOr... wEnt to his fren hse see dem pak mahjong till 4am, den mY dad came & fetch me gO temple & prAy... lolx.. mY niece, nephew, dad, mum & sis have nOt slept a wink tHe whole nite too... keke...

eVerything ends ard 9am ... lolx... reAched hOme, tOok a bAth & slept thru sUnday... & dere gOes mOi weekend..

**awaiting fOr the next weekend** lolx... *yAWnzZz*

mMmm.. ydae was a long day.. lolx... mEt up with ah wen, ah pam & my sis at clementi... aH pam perm her hair while i colour moi hair... hurhur.. bUt ah wen & my sis went to sunset bay nOt long after...

wE stayed at the salon for aRd 3 hOurs plus.. afTer that, wE went to Jurong as i wanted to gO to the cReative fest dere to get mOi mp3... hehe.. & I bought a Zen Nano Plus mp3 player.. laLAlallallalal.... sO glad I bought it.. lolx...

aFter which we went dOwn to Orchard to meet up with sOphia & Nicole... walked aRd for a while at tAka & since we all are tired.. the 3 of us went hOme 1st leaving pam & her friend .. hurhur... *yAWnzzZz*

iT really has been a long day... ^_^!

oMg... Im still god damn sickkkkk....

... ermmm.. let's talk about tales of my life today.. hurhur... well... I went to work as usual & after work, nicole & sophia came & fetch me ... We went to nicole house for dinner.. mMmm.. **yUmmy**.. the food her mum cook is nicey wOr.. hOme sweet hOme de feeling.. lolx.. eAt full full le & lets guess wadssup next???

... iTs mAhjong time for them.. hurhur... well... look @ them pak mahjong for a while den I go home le.. i'm sO sick & tired le.. tml still got to work... but well.. iTs Friday... last weekday of the week .. lallLAlallalLAlaa...

oHhh.. where's mOi pOor ah dear?? .. he is still wOrking .. he is damn tired too... poor thing.. hurhur... ^_^!

**aHhhh hhHhh cHoooOoooo** ... gUess I really got to take a rest le.. nitey... zZzzZz

*yAwnz.. long weekend over le... today backie at wrk.. sO sick.. I mean.. I'm really sick.. lolx... down with flu n sore throat.. oMg.. =(

met up wif ah nic, ah sop, ah wen today after wrk at lot 1 for dinner.. hehe... as usual.. had fun.. hurhur... after that, hOme sweet hOme... ^_^!

*stretch* ... sO tired... tml stil gOt tO work.. yEah.. wOrk is gOod.. lolx... wOrk trains my slAgging brain?? lolx...

zZzzZzzz... nitey everyone .. esp to mOi sis.. poor sis had a bad day at wrk todae?? hurhur.. mmMmmm.. poor ger.. nitey...

孤单, 是一个人的狂欢 ...
狂欢, 是一群人的孤单 ...

我是个不健康的女子，
喜欢以伤害和残酷的方式生活，
表面无忧无虑, 内心自恋自持 ...
爱上我注定要疼痛绝望 ...

生命一刻不能凝固，
灵魂一刻不能安宁 ...
我将心灵封锁，
闭上耳朵，不听任何声音 ...
生活始终是一片空白。

*sTretch*.... iT has been a long day... backie from work le... sO tired wOr...

Just now during lunch break, went to sim lim with a friend for a walk... saw those mp3s up for sale.. mMmmm... pAy day I will get a new mp3... lolx.. a tiny mp3.. sO kawaii de.. hurhur... those digital cameras also seem sO nice sia.. bUt I don't really have a need for it... sO I will make do with it... keke...

But y I always wanna buy this & that de... aRgGghhhh.. I must learn to control.. save $ to go overseas instead.. laLLallallaa... hOpe that I will be able tO go on my 1st tRip tO Japan soon?? Mum & dad & sis & ah dear & nephew & niece & friends all gO together... wahhHAhah...

*yAwnxXx*...

wAtching tv time... tomorrow is Friday le... wOOoohOoo...

我是个很倔强的人，
我不愿意逢人就撕裂我的伤疤来博取同情，
不管遇到什么困难，
我都不愿表现自己的脆弱，
要强的外表把一切关于我的真实深深埋藏。

不幸的一切把我的思想造就得很极端，
我变得越来越厌世，
很多时候我在心里闷闷的把令自己不开心的事情想了一遍又一遍，

我知道自己像个在悬崖边徘徊的小孩，
孤独、无助、迷茫。。。

其实，路早就铺好了，
只等我去走，
而每条要走的路都有一个结局是注定好了的。。。

一切事情，
来不及细细体味就已烟消云散。。。

Life is a race...
Racing is part of life...
The point of a race is not the winning...
But the process of the race...

Darkness of a life is caused by its surroundings...
Happiness is not given by others...
It is to be captured & raced after...

mMm... today is ah dear de b'dae... hAppy bdae tO ah dear wOr... hehe.. sO poor thing.. bdae still gOt to rush project & work.. lolx.. lalLAlallallala...

zZzzZz.. backie frOm work... sO hungry .. think i gO cook macaroni eAt nOw... *gRrrRrr* hUngry errrrrrr... *pOooof* *gOne*

mMm... today went to Nicole bdae party at her house woR... got ah pam, ah wen, ah sop, serene... hehe.. nicole so busy with her frenz.. lolx.. no time for us wOr.. but 4gib her la.. bdae gurl ma.. ^_^!

Sis Nicole... hAppy bdae tO u wOr... mAy all wishes come true & u stay blissfully happy 4eVa... *winkx*

最遠那一邊 找尋著夢裡的 neverland
用食指朝著　深藍的海面
那力量在心底出現
陣陣的微風　
吹的那麼美

我看到夢裡的 neverland
我能找到心中那座美麗樂園

far away ,
不會累,
find the way

Now that I'm older,
the happiness subsides ...
Feeling alone,
now my true self no longer hides ...

A step towards reality,
as the two of me collides ...
The person that I've been,
and the people that we are ...

Try and grasp myself,
but realize I've gone too far ...
Lost in a sea of awkwardness,
not knowing what's to come

Look where I came from,
I've been alone before ...
Survived with the best,
but don't get caught in the trap
to be caged in like the rest ...

They can tell me what to do,
They can tell me who to be ...
But if I let them capture me,
True life I'll never see ...

無邊無際無窮　無限蔓延
無道無天無間　無限光遠
無悔無怨無限　無法超越的世界

紅色藍色灰色　黑色警戒
無色有色真實　
虛幻空間 都是屬於我們　

hold your tears no matter what people say

只有相信一種堅持　一種力量
能把失敗都摧毀
只有我絕對 沒有後路可退
自由去追沒有誰能拒絕
只有我超越

weekends seem to pass so fast de... =(

today is already Sunday.. tml gOt to work le.. zZzzz... anyway.. on Friday.. I went to Informatics to collect my diploma.. and.. since it's the first time I eva got my hands on moi own diploma cert.. kinda happy.. lolx.. wadsmore... its printed on the cert that I'm a distinction student.. woOoooo.. *winkx*.. sO happy.. lolx..

gOt to gEt some rest le & prepare fOr another week of wOrking.. zZzzZzz...

[ . aWaiting fOr the weekend . ] ^_^!

sOooo tired... started work for a few days le.. mmm.. overall.. still alrite lo... only still kinda unfamiliar there.. keke...

Doing programming... writing programmes everyday... zZz... eVeryone seems sO hardworking there wor.. unlike my previous working location at the law firm.. lolx.. bUt better job prospects here ba... can learn more things.. and most importantly... better pAy.. waHAhhaha...

=+= gO eAt dinner le... will update again once I'm not so tired .. hehe =+=

忽然之间，
觉得人其实是很渺小的。。。

我们的这一生，
只不过是我们千千万万世里的一世。。。
何必去要求那么多。。。
贪那么多呢？？？

把所有世物都占为己有，
喜欢的就去想办法得到，
这都是一种贪。。。

在感情上，
我们有谁从来不贪过呢？？？
想一想，
何苦呢？？？

太执着也是一种苦啊。。。

ydae was ah dear good fren de b'dae wor.. we went to town tO catch a mOvie.. since the show start @ 1.45am, we went to swenson to while away our time since it was still early...sat there for aRd 2 hrs?? lolx...

wAtched a show by the name of "Secret Society" & oMg, wAd a "nice" show it was?? lolx.. kinda lame.. with nO audience in the theatre except for 2 grps of pple... zZzzZzz.. nevertheless, i still endure till the last.. lolx.. ^_^!

nOwhere to go after that.. so hOme we gO ... *yAwnxz* ... {^_^}

today at daddy hOuse... later going back to yishun le.. *yAwnx*

ydae drove daddy lorry go tanjong pagar meet ah pAm & after that went to gEylang to bUy mOi " gui ling gao ".... hehe... bO tius, sianzZz... sO hOme we gO... lolx.. damn bo liao of me hor?? hur hur ...

that's life in singapore ??? ... ^_^!

mMmm.. today went to tampines with mum for a walk...aFter that went hOme to wait for sis & dad off work ... cOz dere is a dinner treated by sis bf to me & moi dad as a belated treat ( same b'dae on 28th ) .. keke.. thankx a lOt sis & ken.. ^_^!

we went to the Mushroom Pot @ Kallang for dinner.. mMmMm... *yUmmy*

bUt in life... it's not as simple as working, eat, play, slp..... tHere are oTher mOre problems hidden within... hAiz... life... life... life... wAd a life!!!

*sIgh*

sUnday.. b'dae eve?? lolx.. went to wAtch a movie wiTh ah dear, sis, & her bf... wAtched "The Eyes 10" ... iT's really a cOmedy show more then horror?? lolx... kinda nice show but nt a very good ending tough.. mMmm...

well.. never go clubbing to countdown my b'dae tough.. kinda sick of clubbing?? hurhur... juz a simple life nowadaes... or u can call it dull too.. hehe... mMmmMm.. anyway... wad's to celebrate for getting old?? lmao...

oMg... how i wish time will stop... I dun wanna get old!!! wahHAhaha...

on a sat .. afternoon met up with pAm & went to sHaron hOuse as it wAs Tristan 1 yr old b'dae wOr...

After which, mOi "gan cheong" sis took a cab & come fetch us tO town for shopping spree.. lolx... bOught a sovil titus wAtch for moi dad as b'dae gift & she also bought a $99 dRess for moi as b'dae present woR... sO touched.. Thankx a lOt sis... *hUgx* keke...

meT up with aH wen at tOwn toO.. went to checkers & tOk kok session there... my sis left 1st as her bf came to fetch her... mi & ah wen sat for aRd 2 hours with just 2 gls of ice lemon tea?? lOlx... bOth of us were waiting toO... mi waiting for mOi aH siao & she waiting for her fren.. pOor us.. keke.. ^_^!

nExt destination was to M.soUth to see ah dEar pak game leh... zZzzZzz.. den gO makan le & gO hOme le.. *yAwnx*

a dAy is not considered a day passed when I have nOt slept..lOlx.. tHats oUr way of saying.. haha ...nitey...zZzzZzz..

hApPy eAster dAy to all.. eNjoy ur weekend wOr... ^_^!!

*yAwnx* anOther dAy rotting aT hOme... waiting fOr April to start wOrk...

bOring aT hOme.. sO edit mOi blog wiTh a diff bAckground... simple & nice?? lOlx... ^_^!

lalLALlalLAlla.... foUnd a jOb le... mMmmM.. as a dAta pRocess Programmer?? mMmmm.. nOt bAd ehHh.. aT leAst sOmething tO do witH mOi interest and its an IT jOb.. keke... will start wOrk iN april... will wOrk hArd de... tHink i shOuld be abLe to learn mOre fRom tHis cOmpany then my previous pOsition ba... keke...

anOther vacancy as an eXporter called uP to ask me to stArt wOrk toO wor.. tHat seems nT bad too.. buT tOo bad... I can't take up 2 same working hours job at the same time ya... keke...

aFterall... life dOesn't seem to be tHat bad... hOpe nOthing bAd turns oUt of tHis ( eg: telling me they have changed their mind about employing me? ) lolx... bO bian... I'm a nEgative thinker.. lOlx... hOw I wish I could sTart wOrk soon... hehe... ^_^!

我无语……

在随后的日子里，

我选择了放弃，

像这个城市的大多数人一样，

脚步匆匆，

然而多了一点空虚... ...

... tOday wEnt for aN interview aGain.. after that called uP all mOi sis & asked them tO meet uP... keke.. iT's fUn tO orgAnise a mEet-up.. loLx..

As all oF tHem aRe busy witH own stuffs.. gOt to gAther tHem togEther is difficult wOr.. sO i initiate a cOnference call instead of me messagIng tHem aGain n aGain for time & pLace.. keke.. iN tHe enD hor.. rEally " ki si lang" .. aH pam spRain her bAck.. ( kok aH pam hEad) gOing to see dOc.. ah sOp last mInute mAi go... ( kIck ah sOp.. haha.. *winkx* to ah sOp ) aNd aH wEn Late for 1 hOur... ( sTrangle aH wen.. * hUgx* u r 4givable this time ) hehe.... oNly pOor aH nic is tHe pOor ger.. cOz.. I also lAte.. hehe...

3 of us aT coffee bean lim kOpi & tOk kok.. mMmm... tHat's oUr lifestyle nOwadaes??? lolx.. anYway... see yA sis sOon...

*ehem* PS: mOi flesh n blood aH sis (jOyce) .. mAi gek xim... bOjio u cOz i tot u witH yOur aH ken.. hehe... oR u aT bedOk... nExt tIme mEet-up aT tOwn sUre jIo u eHhhh.. & tHankx fOr ur pInkish wallet wOr ... ^_^!

zZzzZzz... zZzzZzzZzz... ZzzzZzzZzz...

Wipe the evidence from my mind...

Shed the scarred tissues ,

that were etched in with time ...

Let them no more burden my heart ...

Can the tears that fall from my eyes

heal what I feel inside???

I can never get justice ,

from the years passed ...

But they can still get the better of me...

I’ve nowhere to hide.

“人生最难戒掉的不是什么嗜好，而是习惯”

我们总是习惯的活着，

习惯的苦恼着，习惯的。。。

我们生活的城市，

身边的人，身边的事，

只有我们还是老样子。。。

因为……

那，只是一个故事。。。

The faces of death
We all have seen
Day after day
Endless it seems.

Too many close calls
Just crossing the street
Or walking at night
As harmless As it seems
Will bring you to your knees
In your nightmares

For what you have lived
Was once your dreams

zZzzZz... aNotHer dAy rOtting aT hOme...

What if life only lasted a day,
Do you think we'd appreciate it better?
What if life was like hell,
Do you think we would dream?
About a life like we have now?
What if in life we had everything,
Do you think it would get boring?
Why want another life?
Your life is perfect already

aNother bOring dAy.... bEen sending rEsume bUt nO luck yEt...zZzzZzz

mMmMm ... wEnt tO kTv fEw dAys aGo wiTh aH dEar & his fRiends... oN new yEar.. keke... bEen sO long since i lAst went tO kTv... hEhe... tHen oN vAlentine dAy went tO sOme ulu pUb aT KatOng... kInda fUn thoUgh.. wiTh my sis, her bf & mi N mel ... heHe...

zZzzZzz... bOring tOday... sEnding rEsume time ... zZzzZzz...

cHinese new yeAr??? lOlx.. I wishes all oF yOu a hAppy chinEse nEw yEar...

as fOr me.. nAh... wAd a yEar... nOthing is gOing well... tHe rOad is full of uPs & dOwns... gUess tHat's life??? well.. eVerthing hAs its " 因 " & its " 果 "... gOt tO fAce it... sOoner or later...

mMmmMmm... aN eArly Valentine Day tO all ( eSp all my sIs )... wIsh u all blissfully hAppiness... & gEt lOtx of caRe & cOncern fRom yOur oTher hAlf...

**++** dreAming iN mOi wOrld **++**

Wednesday, Feb 09, 2.50 a.m

我的心到底在追求什么？

是追求大家都认为值得追求的?

房子、学位、职称 ???

其实它并没有一直在追求着什么，

它其实并不存在，

它只是各种外来信息与内在欲望代言人的纠缠，

它们彼此斗争着，最后大家都累了，

都希望安宁了...

也许安宁会是我的心最终要追求的吧...

一遍一遍地反复听这首歌,
大脑一片空白,心也被掏空了,
什么事都不想做,
也什么事都不敢做,
恐触到让自己心痛的东西。

人永远都不满足于现实中的欢乐。。。
总是期待一次又一次的奇迹。。。

也许需要的只是一句关切的话。。。
甚至只是一个淡淡的微笑。。。

能够静静等待的人不多。。。

生活因为真实。。。
所以不能如同童话故事一般尽善尽美。。。

woOooOo... finally... passed my final exams le.. laLLAlallaLal... 3 months later will get my 1st diploma... lolx.. aT least sOmetHing tO maKe me a bit hAppy... ^_^!

... tOday wAs oUr gOod sis sOphia wedding wOr... eArly morn wenT to her pLace le.. wAhhh.. sHe was sOooOOo pRetTy.... keke... aFter tHat at nIte went tO her wedding dinner.. mMmm... sHe was so gorgeoUs wiTh her wedding dRess... shE was simply a pRincess.. eVen my nIece say she is sOoo pretty.. lolx...

sOphia sIs... i wisH u haPpiness 4Eva & hAve a chUbby bAby....rEally... yOu were sImply sO princessly.. hurhur...

*mAy hAppiness bE witH yoU 4Eva & eVa...*

mMmmmMm... tOday mit uP wiTh a few sIs go wAlk wAlk tAlk tAlk... nIcole, sOphia, Pamela, Wendy & mEeeEe... hEhe.. bEen sOmetime sINce we last mEt up tOgether... as all aRe bUsy wiTh wOrk, bOyfriends oR hUbby... keke ^_^!

tImes seem tO hAve pAssed.. keke.. wE all seem oLd le??? lolx... lASt time tOpic was all clubbing tOpic, "aGainst the lAw" tOpic & bgr pRoblems.. nOw.. we oNly tAlk abOut wOrk, $$, bAbies eTc.. lolx... cHAtting tOpic is totally diff le.. hAiz.. fEw years dOwn the rOad.. we will be under the Aunties category le?? hAha... wHats mOst glad is tHat wE aRe all eXtreme gOod gErs nOw... keke..

aNyway... wE wenT to Swenson for dinner, aFter that went to fArEast sHop for a while & hOme we gO.. lOng wAy hOme.. ^_^!

sAturdAy will bE oUr dEar sis sOphia wedding ... mMmmM... gOt to wAke up real eArly tHat dAy.. all foR yoU le.. sOp... hAha... sEe ya all aGain oN tHat dAy..

bOring me nOw .. zZzzZzz... nOthing tO do.. aH deAr aT hOme sleeping like a pIg nOw... sO gUess iTs GunBound time aGain.. laLLAlala.. *gOne*...

bOringGggg... bOringGggg... eVerydAy eAt & eAt.. die lah.. think im getting fatter~!~!~!.. lOlx...

wHere tO gO?? wHat to dO?? sIanz.. been sending resume tHis few days.. bUt was hopIng nO one called me... lolx.. cOz im so lAzy nOw.. feel like having a gooD rest till nEw yr.. hehe.. lOts of excuses fOr myself fOr nOt wOrking.. lALlalalLAla rEally gOt to sTop tHis laziNess & buCk uP le i guEss...

*yAwnx*... bOring lifE... bUt gLad im alive... =>

*yAwnx* mMmmmm.. jUst anOther fRiday... suPposed to be my last dAy of wOrk.. bUt i tOok Mc aGain.. lolx.. mi rEally Mc qUeen wOr.. keke...

aNother dAy rotting aT home aGain... zZzzZzz... bO tiUs... *yAwnx*.. thInk iTs tIme to gO be pIg aGain... lAlLALlLallallalLAa.... wHat a bOring 2005... ^_^!

人们都说，长大了，
懂的事情多了，经历的也多了，
但是，对于爱情，谁又说真的能懂？

真的可以拿的起放的下？
谁都会说不能相信爱情，
可是这个世界又有几个人能真正做到？

即使一个人真正被爱所伤，
但是在碰到另一段让他心动的感情时，
他似乎可以忘记过去的伤痛，
又重新投入另一份感情，

迷失在爱情的国度里。

面对感情，

谁都避免不了会受到伤害，
既然爱情那么使人痛苦，

为什么还是会有那么多人去碰触？

仅仅是为了刚开始的怦然心动，
还是最初新鲜感，
或者是交往后短暂的甜蜜？？？

难道真的就为了那短暂的幸福吗？？？

mMmmm... I wiShes all of u a hAppy nEw yEar & mAy all uR wishes & mine cOme true ... hehe...nEw yr nEw sTart... ^_^!