mMmm... here's a blog post to tell moi dear frenz & sis & family ... I LOVE YOU.. lolx...

well.. ydae after wrk.. met up wif a few sis & frenz fer dinner... after that went fer drinking session.. yes... i did stress that it was meant to be a small gathering.. not a bdae celebration.. lolx.. thanx fer all whu turned up.. heee..

all the presents & the "cake" was very much appreciated... reli.. a thousand million thanx hor.. hee.. reli enjoyed myself a lot.. mMmm.. ii no dat most of you were wrking today.. but ur still stayed till late.. oOooOo.. ur are a bunch of nicey nicey lovable frenz.. lolx.. heres a **hugx** fer all of u.. lolx.. I LOVE YOUR DEEPZ DEEPZ de hor.. heee..

also a big thanxx to those whu gave mi little surprises on moi bdae wor.. **winkx**.. small tots are much appreciated by reii too.. **thumbx upx** and also **hugx** fer ur too.. lolx..

of coz.. not fergetting those whu remember moii bdae... it shows im still remembered & not forgotten as of yet ya.. lolx.. Thanx fer dat too.. **winkx**

dats all the nice things that ii got fer moi bdae... BUT, i got one more unwanted last minute present which pissed moii off.....

I MET A PERVERT while ii was in the lift minutes ago before ii reached hme.. oMg.. wTf.. sibei suay.. arGhHhhHhhh.. reli perverted guy.. y in the hell did he do dat huh? reli dun understand wad tis pple get fer doin perverted stuff...

well.. guess im gonna have another nitemare tonite...

iim juz wondering how ii came to be wad ii am...
iim not sleeping like ii used to sleep...
iim not thinking like ii used to tink...

iim findin that iim staying up way too long...
iim using the time to tink of all that ii've done...

ii've to tink abt wads real & wads not...
ii've to walk thru wif a smile plastered on moi face...
ii've fall so hard and land so low...
the bottom that ii've hit is wad ii've earned...

ii tried to be happy,
ii tried not to frown,
ii tried to smile at strangers,
hoping their life is much better...

everything you see may not be what it seems...
everything is just so fake that it seems real...

ii did wad ii did coz ii think ii shuld...
ii hope iim not pulling the past to the present...
coz...
ii've oredi forsaken the past...

我闭上眼睛, 想把过去都遗忘
我忍住不想, 时间变得更漫长
找朋友交谈, 其实全帮不上忙

这所谓的道理, 听起来太牵强
我无所谓悲伤, 只要学会抵抗
只想变的坚强, 强到能够去忘

回过头再看一看, 想起过去都是失望
其实真的不需要, 不需要再感到悲伤

Sometimes when part of the past appeared now & again,
it triggers back memories of the past ...
tots juz whirl in the mind ...
tots about life & the past ...

What if life only lasted a day,
will we appreciate it better?
What if life was like hell,
will we dream of heaven?
What if in life we had everything?
Do you think it would get boring?

We really should be glad with what we have ...
Do not let greed take over our life ...
for the casualties caused is not worth it ...

Why have ii lived so much
iin such a short time???

I'm trying moii best & working so hard...
to push all these thoughts & questions out of moii head...
But... they always return...

ii am trying to forgive and forget,
But... ii fear others...
Or maybe all ii fear is myself???

When will ii be able to smile & know that it is real?
When will moii thoughts be normal & not scare or frighten me?
When will ii be able to trust & not fear being hurt?
When will this sadness disappear, for it is taking up moii mind...

Someday I'll find myself...

& all will seem right...
But for now I'll keep searching...
& keep going until the end...

我想选个陌生方向, 寻找一个解答 ...

我想去个地方 ...
- 有纯真的时光, 像个秘密藏在谁的信箱 ...
- 快淡忘的时光, 温暖回忆住在心上 ...
- 没纷扰的地方, 世界充满不可能的想法 ...
- 没束缚的地方, 只把自由穿在身上 ...

忘了有多久,
我的过去,
已不能重写 ...

谁能让时间倒转???