Why have ii lived so much
iin such a short time???

I'm trying moii best & working so hard...
to push all these thoughts & questions out of moii head...
But... they always return...

ii am trying to forgive and forget,
But... ii fear others...
Or maybe all ii fear is myself???

When will ii be able to smile & know that it is real?
When will moii thoughts be normal & not scare or frighten me?
When will ii be able to trust & not fear being hurt?
When will this sadness disappear, for it is taking up moii mind...

Someday I'll find myself...

& all will seem right...
But for now I'll keep searching...
& keep going until the end...