wow.. its been ages since ii laz update my bloggie.. mMmmm.. moii pc ki siao le.. tiink its geting old le lo... another reason fer new lappie????.... hahahaha.... & life has been real busy too.. any free time ii can find & ii will be lying on e bed rotting... lolx.. its so damn tiring de lo.. wrking & wrking ... *yawnzZzZz*...

of coz deres sum rewards fer myself fer all moii hard wrk de lo...haha.. new shoes fer my ride.. lolx.. now waiting fer nice nice xos to reward myself more... lalalLALlalalla...

to perk things up... ii hab to congrats dearest nicole & dearest sis on their new born bb... it is jux so coincidental dat both of dem are named Rui En.. lolx.. nice name which both of dem tot of at ard same day same time at different place.. haha.. it is jux so coincidental de lo... & nicole bb is older den my niece by ard 1 week onli ba... 2 dear sis... 2 pretti bb... gong xi gong xi hor..

tml is another long day @ wrk... gng to slp le.. will be updating more frequent once ii gt my lappie.. haahaa... **yawnzZz**... nitey to all hor.. *waves*

又相见时, 已是个陌生人 ...
再没有往日的喜怒哀乐, 再没有痛 ...

没事, 干吗把自己搞的那么狼狈???
我心里嘀咕着 ...

梦依旧出现在脑海里,
但那颗曾经伤过的心已不在似从前...

当爱已成往事，
往事不要再提，
当爱和恨都还在心里，
真的要断了过去,
让明天好好继续...

To learn & to practice wad iis learned time & again iis pleasure, iis iit not?

To hab frenz cum frm afar iis happiness, iis iit not?

To b unperturbed when nt appreciated by others iis gentlemanly, iis iit not?

看见。那人心的虚伪。。。
听见。那一切的谎言。。。
不说。那永远的秘密。。。

不想。那无聊的猜测。。。
忘记。那过去的一切。。。
放弃。那虚假的世界。。。

人，就是那么虚假虚伪。。。
我，活在虚假的空间里。。。
我，想换个方式活下去。。。

学会了，不要太执着。。。
学会了，不要太在意。。。
学会了，这样活下去。。。

过去，
在我的过往中，是一道深深的印痕，
即便岁月将它抹平了，却仍然是心头的伤 。。。

走在街上，
我仿佛看到每一个来去匆匆的人，
背负着过去，走在今天，去往未来 。。。

每个人都会对身边那个正爱着的人的过去产生好奇，
那是一种本能，一种爱的本能 。。。
可是一旦知道了，除了疼，还会留下什么呢 ???

爱需要真诚相待，但也需要有秘密，
所谓的秘密，就是让爱情有呼吸的时候 。。。
所谓的秘密，就是给大家一个私人的空间 。。。

每个人都会有过去，没有过去就构不成现在，
任何人都没有权利，没有权利随意践踏别人的心灵 。。。
学着去接受过去吧，让大家都有呼吸的空间 。。。

well well well.. been such a long long long time since i laz update moi bloggie ya... hee.. life has reli been frustrating & tormenting.. esp during wrk days.. lolx.. but well.. finally.. i will be getting out of hell soon.. soooooo.. 3 cheerz fer dat... lalLAlalLallalaa...

found a btr job at a btr company wif btr benefits.. hopefully.. things will turn out well.. also, not fergetting those who have stood by moi & listened to moi frustrations.. those sessions of listening to moii blasting out these unhappiness are reli greatly appreciated .. haha.. all thx to dem (to be unnamed to protect their interests).. lolx.. *winkx*.. uu no who u r ya de lo.. hee...

other den a change of job.. moii life still goes on quite peacefully.. as usual.. the usual routine... the usual lifestyle... a peaceful monotonous life with moii adding sum spices to it by showing moii "good" temper to pple ard moii.. hee.. poor dem.. but ii no.. dey still love mi de lo.. lolx.. *winkx*

lost in thoughts...
lost in confusion...
lost in dreams...
lost in life...

heart has forgotten how to feel...
& soul has gone missing...

like a winding road,
things juz wind ard...
like sum1 lost in sleep,
never wanting to wake again...

pain...once so sharp,
is now dull and weak...

tired from the weariness...
hiding away in a dark place inside...
staring off into a black oblivion...
life has become so bleak...

每天漫无目的的过着。。。
就连明天该做什么都不知道。。。

来到了这个虚假世界。。。
烦恼的心结正环绕着。。。
让自己弄的疲惫不堪。。。

已经活得好累, 好枯燥。。。
只是没有人看到而已。。。
我, 不再眷恋些什么。。。

listening to e sound & emptying my mind...
roaming e void... not knowing wad ii will find...
ii have opened my eyes & took off e blindfold...
witnessing e true world dat is dark and cold....

e things dat tear us apart are wealth, fame & status...
living in a world of greed... dey are hiding behind a mask...
backstabbing each other without a doubt...stabbing others in e heart...

ii loath dem...
uncontrolled emotions... unknowing blind...
ii will learn this... humanity kind...

Death is certain, but the time of death is uncertain...

There is no possible way to escape death. No one ever has, not even Jesus, Buddha, etc. Of the current world population of over 5 billion people, almost none will be alive in 100 years time.

Life has a definite, inflexible limit and each moment brings us closer to the finality of this life.

Do you know we are dying from the moment we are born??
Death comes in a moment and its time is unexpected. All that separates us from the next life is one breath.

Do you also know that the only thing that can help us at the time of death is our mental/spritual development??
Because all that goes on to the next life is our mind with its karmic (positive or negative) imprints.

Worldly possessions such as wealth, position, money can't help.
Relatives and friends can neither prevent death nor go with us.
Even our own precious body is of no help to us. We have to leave it behind like a shell, an empty husk, an overcoat.

We have to cultivate positive mental qualities and abandon disturbing mental qualities...
We have to ripen our inner potential purely, without staining our efforts with attachment to worldly concerns.

All these may sound like preaching.. but well.. it's really up to individual as each have their own beliefs...

我，太渺小。。。
只遇见自己的生命在呼吸。。。
自以为逃避可以摆脱一切。。。
以为放弃可以勇敢一次。。。

全然我错了。。。
生活亦真亦假。。。命运天注安排。。。
人生没有复数的完美。。。只有零度的挫伤。。。
我无路可退。。。

人是不是总在经历很多之后变得圆滑？
人是不是在拥有很多后，

便忘了自己单纯的梦想与执著？

时间已经带走了许多。。。
包括熟悉，人情冷暖。。。
不知道时间除了层层叠叠的痛。。。
断断续续的裂痕。。。
又带给我了冷漠，还是改变？

我就那么静静盼望。。。
盼望奇迹。。。

congratz to yet another marriage~!~!~!.. lolx.. went to weijie wedding dinner on sunday.. well.. it was at Carlton hotel.. finally this fella got married le... lolx.. & indeed... SG is small de lo.. coz ii saw moi ex-colleague dere & she was the bride's cousin.. haha..

well... met up wif few frenz dere too.. it's been such a long time since i laz met up wif dem ya.. fun cute bunch of fellas whom ii used to hang out wif??? haha....
3 **cheerz** to moi 135 and 246 laogongs + the super duper cockster Bryan... & not fergetting moi 1234567 laogong pam... lolx..

after the wedding dinner, we moved on to Kallang mac fer tok kok session .. times seems to flies.. mMmmm... every1 has moved on... well.. dat goes to shows... we are all getting old le.. **yeahzZz**... but no worries.. i still tink iim young de.. wahhahahaha.. **oPpxXx**

anyone else gettin married??? seems the in-trend now.. lolx..

congrats to moi dearest dearest sis on her marriage yesterday..... **hugx** + **kisses**... hehe.. a pretty long day fer her ydae... getting married seems so tiring ya?? lolx.. all those preparation has tired her out le.. so poor ting... but well... guess the happiness shuld be able to cover up the tiredness ba?? hee...

dang dang da dang.. da dang da dang.. da dang da dang da da da da da dang....
**throws flowers at sis**
**hugx**
**congrats once again**

sis wish u blissfully happiness 4eva ya... **winkx**

wad is loss??
its something ii resent...
its about waiting, debating, & contemplating...
its sumting ii care abt & has been taken away frm mi...

with loss brings death & sickness which build up great grief...
with loss brings despair instead of relief...
with loss ii have no belief...

loss... life has became a minus instead of a plus... hence the unmistakable fuss...
loss... An inequitable cause has been thrown on without a toss...

well.. another sunday.. boring sunday.. **yawnzZz**... ii've got a bad day yesterday.. haiz.. unlucky reii ..

nevertheless.. here's a post to congrats moi dearest nicole sis on her marriage ya.. hee... pretty pretty nicole on this blissfully happy occasion... the "I DO" part is so sweet.. lolx.. its juz soooooOooo... sweet de lo............ reli felt happi fer u ... got urself a nice gd hubby ...

sincerely wishin you a blissfully sweet happy marriage ... **winkx**

nex up will be moi sis's wedding .. another set of sweet moments to be captured soon ya... lolx..

得到时会有负担, 失去后会心寒...
当想起某个片段, 眼泪总会流干...
相信时间会冲淡, 那剩余的伤感...
不想再回头看了, 那过去的伤悲...

[我们的回忆弄掉了, 我都不敢捡]

转个弯回头看...
没打算绝望...
也不想要勉强...

电话删了...
照片不看了...
再没有什么值得我们纪念...

过了就好, 也只会想起那几年...
过了就好, 心不再睫毛...
过了就好, 痛苦会变少...
过了就好, 那心酸的味道...

我已忘了过去的悲伤...
我已忘了还会想起谁的时候突然哭一场...
因为我选择了遗忘...

我经過了这辈子的最痛,
还有什么是我不能触碰???

我已学会痛的时候无声...
我已学会无声沉默的离别...
我已学会静静的度过...
我已学会静静的被遗忘...

我已学会不再问...
.... 谁能让时间倒转....

离开, 容易吗??
离开了, 反而会好吗??
或许有着太多疑问...
或许这是一种折磨...
茫然无助的寻找解脱...
懂得了道理又如何呢??

我学会了放弃...
我学会了承受...
我学会了开始...
我学会了生活...

因为我学会了离开...

though sometimes ii seek but cannot find...
though sometimes ii knock but no doors open...
though sometimes ii ask but doesn't receive...
though sometimes ii work but no pay...
that doesn't mean ii must give up...

iin life ii have learned dat...
crying doesn't help...
depending on people doesn't help...
standing up & doing things for myself is even better...

Sometimes ii fail...
Sometimes ii think e pressure is too much to handle...
Sometimes ii feel like ii've had it & want no more...
Sometimes ii wonder whether it's worth it at all...
Sometimes ii wonder whether it's real or fake...

problems & problems...
to me it's collosal...
to e rest it's small...
but well.. still...
it goes on...

不能像小时候那样，哭着、闹着 。。。

悲伤反复在温习 。。。
反反复复的谜底 。。。
现在明白的道理 。。。
已经没有意义了 。。。

选择了。。。
沉默了。。。
安静了。。。

In a knowledgeable person, immersed in clear knowing, right view arises...
In one of right view, right resolve arises...
In one of right resolve, right speech...
In one of right speech, right action...
In one of right action, right livelihood...
In one of right livelihood, right effort...
In one of right effort, right mindfulness...
In one of right mindfulness, right concentration arises...
& this happens vice-versa too...

Interdependent arising, conditional nexus, causal nexus....
As long as we remain ignorant, clinging, and hateful,
we will continue to create karma,
& so continue to be reborn into this world full of suffering and pain...

Using the metaphor of a wheel of life,
one thing inevitably leads to another...

that is the cycle of life...

Eva asked urself this question?? - "Whr exactly r we?"

Instead of a place, it's actually a process... e tendency to kip creating worlds and then moving into dem. As one world falls apart, u create another & go dere... At the same time, you bump into other people who r creating their own worlds...e worlds we create keep caving in and killing us...

Moving into a new world requires effort.. not only e pains & risks of birth, but also the hard knocks of mental and physical wise... tis comes frm going thru childhood to adulthood ... over & over again...

In addition to creating suffering fer ourselves, e worlds we create feed off e worlds of others, juz as theirs feed off ours... In some cases e feeding may be mutually enjoyable and beneficial, but even then the arrangement has to come to an end.... tis is wad we call the samsaric world...

everything that is on my mind...
is always in a bind...
sumtimes it’s people or family...
sumtimes it’s friends or foes...
sumtimes it’s right or wrong...
sumtimes it’s juz life itself...

thru all the ups & downs..
some will be dere & some can't be found...
u can give ur all or u can try not...
u build it up then it breaks away...

life is wad life is...
life is dat tiring...
life is such...
life...

忘, 我没有很努力要自己去遗忘...
想, 我没有很刻意让自己不去想...
这世界没有谁都行, 因为人会改变...

我学着坚强, 坚强到不用学...
我学着遗忘, 也遗忘了自己...
我学着去接受...拥有已变成了失去...
我学着不执着...这让自己比较好过...

我会这么相信, 相信人会改变...
我会这么走下去, 很无奈的走下去...

面对陌生疑惑肯定困难的生活...
时间不停转动...
日子还的往下过...

是傻? 是看破?
是对? 是错?
是软弱??

不想再想太多, 不回头...
不想再去追究, 错过就错过...
你可以说我冷漠...
你可以说我刻薄...

过去的日子, 仿佛偷偷在笑我...
笑我的落魄, 也笑我的执著...

我希望心能死了, 它却苦苦的活着...
连快乐都不快乐, 这世界颠倒着...

开着车, 开着窗, 开始试着去遗忘...

ya no wad... life is getting too confusin once again.. lolx.. totally lost in life now wor.. haha.. wth is going on.. or im jux too bored??? i can't get my thoughts straight.. i can't think in the rite way (what is rite anyway???)... temper coming up once again... attitude problem is actin upz once again too ... oPpx...

everything is going haywire now wor... iim totally lost... jux dun feel good .. or is dat moii depression acting up once again??? any ans??? haha.. no1 can gib moii an ans.. i can't find an ans too.. or maybe iim jux tired?? tired of life ya??? **sigh**

:: away looking fer inner peace ::

sometimes ii get so angry that ii juz wanna punch e wall...
sometimes ii get so annoyed that ii juz wanna hit someone...

sometimes ii juz dun wanna see anything...
sometimes ii juz dun wanna hear anything...
sometimes ii juz dun wanna talk to anyone...

sometimes ii juz feel like giving up & letting everything go...
sometimes ii juz feel like life is nothing but a dream...
sometimes ii juz feel ii can't do anything right...
sometimes ii juz feel ii can't take life anymore...

sometimes ii juz wanna be alone...
sometimes ii juz want it to stop...
sometimes ii juz want it to end...

sometimes... only sometimes...

iim lost, uu're lost, we're all lost...

lost iin lies, lost iin love, lost iin dreamz...
lost of hope, lost of faith, lost of sanity...
lost to bleak oblivion, corpse & comatose...

lost but not found...
shaken mind, fallen under sway of lost minds...
burned by haunting memories...

e world iis lost...
stirred & slurred by circumstances...

Dun bother to actually care,
juz go on doing as ii dare...
Dun bother to hold back e tears,
juz keep livin in moii fears...
Dun bother tryin to fit in,
jux being alone is not a sin...
Dun bother to not scream & shout,
juz go on & let it all out...
Dun bother acting like everthin is alrite,
jux kip cryin to sleep at nite...
Dun bother showing others moii true feelings,
jux kip on tokin to the ceiling...
Dun bother saying wad is wrong,
jux be alone as ii have so long...
Dun bother even living on,
jux continue dying... becoz...

no one will notice ii am gone...

well... feeling so demoralized & tired.. wads wrong ya.. mMmm.. down down down to the pit ... bottomless pit wor.. lolx.. i nid sum sweet stuff to perk moii up.. hee...

choco fudgeeeeeeeee.. sudden crave fer it juz now.. so bring the kids out to kallang mac fer a freezing sweet ice cream session... hee...

jux backie... but.. still.. im tired.. soOooOoo tired.. how how how.. ask the cow.. mOoOooOoo...

我迷失了方向，
也迷失了自己。
总是想不清楚，
也更搞不清楚，
这所有的一切，
这一切的原点。

我似乎离开了自己，
到另一个迷惘世界。
这个世界充满矛盾，
这个世界没有信任，
这个世界充满猜疑，
这个世界没有感情。

我走不出，也离不开。
我的思绪，被困住了。

我真的迷失了。。。

mMmm... here's a blog post to tell moi dear frenz & sis & family ... I LOVE YOU.. lolx...

well.. ydae after wrk.. met up wif a few sis & frenz fer dinner... after that went fer drinking session.. yes... i did stress that it was meant to be a small gathering.. not a bdae celebration.. lolx.. thanx fer all whu turned up.. heee..

all the presents & the "cake" was very much appreciated... reli.. a thousand million thanx hor.. hee.. reli enjoyed myself a lot.. mMmm.. ii no dat most of you were wrking today.. but ur still stayed till late.. oOooOo.. ur are a bunch of nicey nicey lovable frenz.. lolx.. heres a **hugx** fer all of u.. lolx.. I LOVE YOUR DEEPZ DEEPZ de hor.. heee..

also a big thanxx to those whu gave mi little surprises on moi bdae wor.. **winkx**.. small tots are much appreciated by reii too.. **thumbx upx** and also **hugx** fer ur too.. lolx..

of coz.. not fergetting those whu remember moii bdae... it shows im still remembered & not forgotten as of yet ya.. lolx.. Thanx fer dat too.. **winkx**

dats all the nice things that ii got fer moi bdae... BUT, i got one more unwanted last minute present which pissed moii off.....

I MET A PERVERT while ii was in the lift minutes ago before ii reached hme.. oMg.. wTf.. sibei suay.. arGhHhhHhhh.. reli perverted guy.. y in the hell did he do dat huh? reli dun understand wad tis pple get fer doin perverted stuff...

well.. guess im gonna have another nitemare tonite...

iim juz wondering how ii came to be wad ii am...
iim not sleeping like ii used to sleep...
iim not thinking like ii used to tink...

iim findin that iim staying up way too long...
iim using the time to tink of all that ii've done...

ii've to tink abt wads real & wads not...
ii've to walk thru wif a smile plastered on moi face...
ii've fall so hard and land so low...
the bottom that ii've hit is wad ii've earned...

ii tried to be happy,
ii tried not to frown,
ii tried to smile at strangers,
hoping their life is much better...

everything you see may not be what it seems...
everything is just so fake that it seems real...

ii did wad ii did coz ii think ii shuld...
ii hope iim not pulling the past to the present...
coz...
ii've oredi forsaken the past...

我闭上眼睛, 想把过去都遗忘
我忍住不想, 时间变得更漫长
找朋友交谈, 其实全帮不上忙

这所谓的道理, 听起来太牵强
我无所谓悲伤, 只要学会抵抗
只想变的坚强, 强到能够去忘

回过头再看一看, 想起过去都是失望
其实真的不需要, 不需要再感到悲伤

Sometimes when part of the past appeared now & again,
it triggers back memories of the past ...
tots juz whirl in the mind ...
tots about life & the past ...

What if life only lasted a day,
will we appreciate it better?
What if life was like hell,
will we dream of heaven?
What if in life we had everything?
Do you think it would get boring?

We really should be glad with what we have ...
Do not let greed take over our life ...
for the casualties caused is not worth it ...

Why have ii lived so much
iin such a short time???

I'm trying moii best & working so hard...
to push all these thoughts & questions out of moii head...
But... they always return...

ii am trying to forgive and forget,
But... ii fear others...
Or maybe all ii fear is myself???

When will ii be able to smile & know that it is real?
When will moii thoughts be normal & not scare or frighten me?
When will ii be able to trust & not fear being hurt?
When will this sadness disappear, for it is taking up moii mind...

Someday I'll find myself...

& all will seem right...
But for now I'll keep searching...
& keep going until the end...

我想选个陌生方向, 寻找一个解答 ...

我想去个地方 ...
- 有纯真的时光, 像个秘密藏在谁的信箱 ...
- 快淡忘的时光, 温暖回忆住在心上 ...
- 没纷扰的地方, 世界充满不可能的想法 ...
- 没束缚的地方, 只把自由穿在身上 ...

忘了有多久,
我的过去,
已不能重写 ...

谁能让时间倒转???

yeahz.. finally.. had moi 1st round of mahjong tius fer this new year ydae @ nicole house.. lolx... it was an enjoyable day.. coz.. basically i was sick... & sick till i lubbish a lot dere.. was shooting lubbish fer the few hrs of mahjong session... **bth**.. can't stand myself aso.. nic, sop, wen.. ur eh tahan ma??? wahahaha... and yes.. nic.. i owe u a lot of tissues... lolx...

after mahjong session.. we went to St James fer "clubbing" session.. went to Powerhouse.. well.. seriously.. had our own piece of fun dere.. coz it was lubbish day fer us ydae.. lolx.. you gers reli no image lehhhhhhhh... **buey tahan**

3 **cheerz** to you gers.. i love your & your AC stuff ... haha...

"Eat fer the sake of eating.. Marry fer the sake of marrying".. lmao... **winkx**

happy new yr to all ya.. hee.. fer moi.. its jux like any normal dayz.. mMm.. will be on leave fer this whole week... i need some mahjong tiusz!!.. lol..

everytime on leave... im sure to get sick de.. sibei suay de.. haha.. down with flu, running nose, sore throat, fever again.. yeahz.. sick cat is out again.. haha..

past few days, all we did was having kopi session, pak billiard, watching movie... it's reli boringz... got to get a life!! hee... and yes... i mish moi dao huey with pearlz... y arent the shop opened yet???

well.. today is wednesday le..mMmm.. ST JAMES tius tonite?? maybe ba.. lolx. **yawnzZz**... clubbing is as boring.. but well.. this is life in SG ya... **sianzsation**

rei wishing all frenz out dere a very happy new yr & get loads of angbaoz... (rem to pass mi half of it hor) **winkx** & not forgettin to wish your luck in gambling.. hee

Memories may be good or bad,
but to make the most out of the past,
one probably has to look at the mistakes committed...

What happens when we are lost beneath these mistakes?

When trust is lost, how can things move forward?
When love is lost, how can friendship remain?
When hope is lost, living remains awkward...

When mind is lost, how can one ever feign?
When will is lost, how can man live or reign?
When soul is lost, the fear of Hell awaits...

The past present itself as visions & images found in long corridors of time.
The human mind perceives the past and tries to make a meaning out of it.

Life, feelings, memories, death... all these are just part & parcel of this cycle... a never-ending cycle...

When will it end??
No one knows...
Till the day...
Enlightenment reaches...

was @ sentosa on sunday & monday.. it was a great weekend ya.. lolx.. fun & relaxing (though we were all kindda tired) hee.. well.. got to thankx winnie & guoqiang fer that.. reali had lotz of fun & jokes dere.. **winkx**

well.. its 1205am now.. reii wish euu a happy valentine day ya.. hee.. may all couples stay blissfully happy together..

**************** hAppy vAlentine Day to yOur , all my d3ar fr3nZz!!! ****************

Why do people cry?
Why do people lie?
Why do people feel like they have to tear down people inside?

Why do people get hurt?
Why do people feel pain?
Why do people feel lost?
Why do people go crazy?
Why do people go insane?
Why do people get used?
Why do people think of suicide to cure pain?

Why are these questions left unanswered?

Well.. there's always a reason...
but its not up to us to unravelled it as of yet...

Life hurts..
Life are full of lies...
We all get hurt & feel the pain...
We all get used by others every now & den...
Some of us feels lost at times...
Some of us even go crazy & insane...
BUT no... we shall never think of suicide..

Depression is a world,
Depression leaves you lost,
Depression drops you into a never ending black hole...

You want to get help, But you can't,
When you do, You wish you didn't...

Depression leaves you numb with fear,
Depression leaves you with no hope,
Depression leaves you with no ambition...

Nothing to look forward to,
With tears well in your eyes,
Depression leaks out...
Out into the open...

跌倒失败也曾经守在阴霾,
不看不听不说傻傻的发呆... ...

爱是我的错,
哭是我的错,
给不了我太多是我的错,
我难过是我的错,
连结束也是我的错... ...

我还放不开内心的阴霾, 忘了曾经你把我出卖...
决定醒来躲开伤害, 而命运的安排已无法更改...

这不是我要的那种结果...
难道这就是所谓的缘分??

爱情过了期限,
那誓言也不过是谎言,
我的明天,
不要你的抱歉...

有些错误不该,
不该明知故犯,
不想太敏感,
只想我的简单...

我早已厌倦太多悬念,
生活也许太长,
幸福也许太短,
一切不一定要与别人有关...
不该继续再犯... ...

ydae was a long day again... was out since 1pm.. zZzzZz.. went to a colleague's house warming party and so coincidentally, she stays @ this place whr ii hope that ii will never step dere eva again .. lolx.. but well.. gonna get over the past ya.. hee... had a short mahjong session dere.. lolx.. with good "service" provided by house owner ya.. **thumbz Upx**

evening has ended.. & nite is approaching... went down to suntec to mit up some frenz n went to kallang fer some tcss session.. lame ard dere fer sum time before proceeding to town... was oredi feeling kinnda sick before moving off le.. haizZz.. weak system i hab in moi body leh.. lolz...

well.. as usual... rot ard town fer a while... still feelin kinnda sick and ii m still trembling .. wTh.. aso duno wad is happening... jux dun feel well.. hAiz... but nevertheless, we were still rotting & laming ard town.. lolx.. feeling tired & sick.. we proceed home after that...

was feelin lagi worse @ home.. but well.. im still not dead yet.. lol.. **cheerz**

for no rhyme or reason...
somethings just happen...

no one can forestall it...
no one can predict it...

what lies ahead??
what lies beneath??

no one can help ...
no one will help ...

Amidst the tears and pain,
vanishing hopes are gone and flew away ...

Reflections of the past,
trembling thoughts of one,
dwelling deep within the soul ...

Hide the pain, carry on,
routine is the key ...

A mystical sense of reality?
that is this samsaric world which we are in ... ...

Sometimes you have to smile, pretend every things Ok
Hold back the tears, and just walk... away...

When you don't have anybody, then no one ever says goodbye.
You don't have to wait for someone to make you laugh, or make you cry...

I'm not old enough to care, but I am old enough to understand
that when someone walks away, they r always going to come back.
And if they don't come back...they were never really there.

happy new yr to all.. lolx... the 1st sat of 07 has passed ... lol.. ydae was a long day ya.. mMmmm

woke up ard noon & send ah sis go her daughter de school take some kind of awards? ..
after dat send sis hme le den send mum to yishun.. met up wif a fren & went to Racetech.. **yawnzXz** stayed dere from 5plus to 8pm.. zZz ... saw a "long time no c" fren dere too... had a chat... mMmm.. time reli passed fast ya..

After all stuff has been done, went to MS fer dinner... well.. eating seems like a torture to me nowadaes... moi intestine infection has not recovered... & eating is reli a torture.. but.. well.. i still hab to eat.. haha...

after dinner, went to cine buy mobie tix... but.. left onli front seats?? nAh... 4get it den.. went to fetch another fren & went back to yishun fer sOme nice "driftooss show"?? .. bUt we left after a while .... went back to cine... see see look look le.. not much stuff going on.. went to pak pool instead... after a few games... guess wad??? we ended up in MU.. oMg.. its reli... gng back to "Technos" times.. lolx.. CMI.. or can say.. too old le?? lolx.. was in dere fer less den 10 min i think?? **bTh**

with all these "tius", we are rching 4 plus in the morning le... & its bfast time again? ... went to AMK mac fer bfast .. hee.. tcss a while dere & .. its home sweet home le.. ^_^!

颠倒的黑白看不出错对,
真假的表情分不清好坏,
为何受到冷落就自报自弃?
为何遭受挫折就怨天怨地?

也许是生活欺骗了我 ...
也许是我无法证明自己 ...

露出脸，不要再隐瞒,
睁开眼，分辨是与非 ...

摘下那面具，看清这世界... ...